No, no, I’m not quitting!
But I realized something. My entire life I’ve been a certain way. That way has supported my weight gain over the years. Specifically the major weight gain in the past 9 years. That happened over years of stress, struggle, hurt and even, self preservation, protection. I gained weight to protect myself in many ways. I’ll explain that later.
But what I mean about changing my mind was, I walked into the bathroom about a half hour ago… and I didn’t love what I saw (surprise, surprise) but instead of sighing and thinking “Oh gosh, I’ve got sooo long to go”, my IMMEDIATE answer was “Doesn’t matter, I’m changing it” and I moved on.
OMG! Throughout how crappy today was, I’m scraping along every. darn. day. Barely making it. And this process… is changing me in ways that I didn’t realize, in ways that aren’t immediately seen. Wow.
