Seeing that number on the scale this morning was very satisfying.  Very.  It means I’m getting CLOSER.  My driver’s license says 280.  To be under that number will be phenomenal!  I can’t wait.  I’ll see that goal soon, I’m sure!   My eating is going well.  I surprise myself everyday.  Honest.  I’ve had this blog for years, surely years.  And have started – wrote a couple entries in a couple days and then deleted them as weeks would go by without an update.  I have to com here and be honest and remember my goals.

So anyway.  The cloud has dispersed some today.  Quite a lot, actually.  The sun is shining and the weather is Mary Poppins.  (Practicly Perfect in every way!)  That always lifts my spirits.  I kept busy.  I dodged having breakfast out with a friend – she asks me every morning to have breakfast out with her – at our FAVE breakfast joint, too.  It’s so hard to resist, but I did.  I came home and had my fuel and then headed back out again.  After picking up my oldest from preschool, we headed to the park where there was a playdate going on in my playgroup, a few moms were meeting there.  I had to go because otherwise going straight home may have brought the cloud back.  We spent some time in the sunshine and we’re all rosy and happy to be home now.  The kids are settled and resting and I’m glad to have moved a bit more and chatted with the moms… got my mind out from “that thing” that’s been bothering me.

Time heals. Each day I hope it gets easier.  I believe it will.  And while I’m waiting for that, I’ll be dropping this weight and going for the gold!  I feel like such a WINNER today.  How silly does that sound? Hhaha… it does sound silly and I’m loving it.  Silly is better than a personal sized raincloud anyday! Oh, and yesterday I got new workout shoes to help prevent further ankle injury and I also got workout pants and a tshirt.  I wore them yesterday and my legs looked great!  Over time, I’m starting to look less obviously like the “big girl” in the mirror.  That’s pretty cool.  It’s obvious I still am, but hey, I’m getting through the routines and having fun doing it.  I don’t feel like I stick out too much, which is  nice.  It will be really neat one day to totally fit in in those mirrors… of course I’ll always be a head above them, lol.

Off to be productive, I’ll update later