Potties, wrong scales and Double D’s!
30 Apr
Haha, that title made me chuckle.
This is a complete rambly post. Most of it due to the fact that I’m trying to stay away from the jar of Jelly Belly jelly beans in a jar on the counter. I’m not even usually a jelly bean person, but they are calling me – the sugar is calling me. They’re there because my baby FINALLY decided she’s ready to potty train! It’s so awesome! She showed NO interested and resisted at every turn – so different than her older sister. But then yesterday I told her as she ran around naked “You need to put a diaper on, I don’t want you peeing on my couch!” and she states “No diaper!” So I said, “Then you need to use the potty!” I said this because she would usually refuse and say “No use da potty!” and run and fetch a diaper. This time she said “ok!” So she ran off to the bathroom to sit on her little potty (which has done nothing the past few months but hold dolls now and then). A few seconds later she proclaimed that she was done. I gave a sarcastic look to husband, we’ve heard that before. Lo and behold, she went!! We dug out the last of the Easter jelly beans and displayed them on the counter to encourage her. So there they are, colorful and bright – my eyes dance just as much as hers when she caught sight of them…
So, I’m not feeling too great today. It’s a lovely day outside and I’d love to get out in it, but I’ve got this headache that is kind of preventing me from being proactive at all. My body is also feeling really fatigued and sore. I don’t know if it was just my lack of sleep last night from the headache or if maybe I’m coming down with something. Both the kids aren’t in tip top shape either – one has a cough, the other a runny nose, so it’s no surprise if I am getting sick myself. I’m bummed, though, I want my sickness to wait til after my gym class tonight! So, I really am hoping to make it tonight.
I stepped on my bathroom scale this morning. It’s off, consistently off about 5 lbs light. So, when I got on the scale this morning, I knew it wasn’t my “real” weight – but since I’ve used that scale for ages, it was still really neat to see the little needle go under 280′s. Very, very cool.
It’s really happening. Why is it so hard to believe? I mean, I’ve seen that scale hover around 295-297 for months (that is a true weight of 300-302) that to see it dipping down to 278 is surreal!! A reward.
As for DD’s lol… I haven’t bought any “goal” clothes yet. I figured most of my reward was to shop when I am actually the size, plus I kept a few things from my thinner days to fit into. I’ve got these pair of jeans that I got from Victoria’s Secret when I was 17 that I’d love to fit in – even though they’ll be horrendously out of style, I’ll wear them around the house or something – ha! It’s just the idea of getting into them again. And I’m being reasonable, the jeans are a size 14 (although they are a small 14 for sure, being VS and all)
But I did want to buy a few things to help me visualize – and also I thought about taking a pic of me wearing something and then continue to take pics over time of me fitting in it better. Wouldn’t that be fun?
So yesterday I found this really cute little sundress at Target – in the Jr’s section!! So, I came home and thought – I wonder how far I have to go to even GET into it. I was pleasantly surprised that I was able to get it on at all… but was suddenly taken aback at the size of my JUGS! I had to hold onto the straps to prevent them from snapping! In my mid-late teens before I got much heavier, I had pretty medium boobs B. It was nice getting bigger boobs with weight because it kind of by contrast made my midsection look not so big lol.
But for the first time I looked at my big ol boobs with annoyance. How was I going to wear these cute lil dresses with THESE in the way??
And then, if they do get smaller, will they be a weird shape and stuff? Even after nursing two babies, they still are pretty boobs. If I lose weight, what then? Surely they’ll go because unlike my mom, I’m not built like a coke bottle. I want them to be smaller for the sake of the cute dresses and not haveing to wear a HOLSTER wth seven clasps in the back and three inch thick shoulder straps… but if they do shrink, how will they look? I was pretty bummed at the whole thought of it. Silly, I know, but sometimes you think – I’m working so hard – at the end of this journey, don’t I deserve something great at the end? I know, I know, health and weight loss and looking great with clothes on is fab – but I wonder if I’m going to have to put the idea of sundresses to bed? If I do, it’s all right… there are worse things in life – lol. Maybe I’ll get a cute little cardigan to go over it 
This entry, as rambley as it’s been has been so much because it’s taken me about 3 hours to write it – up and down, up and down – is the life of a mama! So, the raincloud is lingering in my house and I catch glimpse of it now and then, but for the most part he’s leaving me alone. It’s a wonderful thing. The sun is shining after all, the advil is kicking in finally to help with my headache. I can’t wait to workout…
Oh happy day. Wrong scale, double d’s and all! If you’ve made it through this useless entry, I applaud you! It was mostly for me, but if you got through it – I feel spesh 
ah..potty training. Wish my little one were ready for that, but she’s absolutely not interested. She runs from the bathroom…lol
As far as the boobage issue….I understand where you’re coming from. I worry so much about having loose skin after I lose the weight. That’s why I’m doing all this strength training. I don’t have your problem…absolutely no endowment here! lol But if I did have that concern, I’d probably try to get a reduction when I finished with the weight loss. That way, insurance would cover it and then I could get the lift too. Surgery’s such a big thing though. I’ve thought about body contouring if I do have the skin issue, but I would definitely wait at least a year to see if everything would level out on its own.