I’m sitting here – trying to avoid the dove ice cream bar in my freezer. I got them just a few days ago when I wasnt eating well at all. And I haven’t the strength to the throw it away. Nor will I allow my kids to have “the good stuff” – they can stick to their popsicles – haha!
Thing is, I have enough points to have this dove ice cream bar.
But I’m scared. I’m scared because I’m addicted to sugar. I’m scared that if I have it, I will crave it tomorrow morning, and a bad morning will result in a bad day, which could result in a string of bad days. This early in the game, we hold on by “the skin of our teeth” – what a weird saying. Thing is, it isn’t just for now. I was talking to a friend today who I’m over the moon to report has lost an amazing 75 lbs!! She tells me it’s STILL hard day to day. I mean, ugh, this isn’t new information for me, but I feel at this moment of strength that failure is imminent. Okay, so yes I know the biggest changes need to happen in my mind – heck, an overwhelming percentage of change needs to happen in my brain – putting aside making new habits and keeping active, I’ve got this idea in my head that I will fail again, it’s my destiny to always struggle. Ridiculous!
Anyway, i dont’ want to focus on that and tear it apart with thought that won’t get me anywhere tonight. All I know is, I’m typing this, hoping my urge to dive into the freezer will pass. I guess I’ll go fold laundry and remind myself:
I will not starve.
This feeling, this urge to eat does not mean the house is empty and I have to inhale it all because it won’t be there tomorrow.
Now say it again, Coley… yes, that’s right.
mini-update: Hubman just brought me a pear, not knowing of all the things swirling around in my head.
He said “Here, eat this pear, it’s perfect.”
He was right.
And guess what, the Dove ice cream bar can taunt me another day.
Man I get what you are saying here.
) cut out sugar for 5 days and then add it back in we will no longer like it.
I recently had a talk with a “guru” who insisted if we (the public
!!!
I begged to differ (in my head anyway
) and thought that she must not like/be addicted to sugars.
xo xo,
MizFit
Were you a Wilson-Phillips fan????!!! I totally was once when I was a little kid. Here’s a little tid bit for maybe in the future…maybe not buy the Dove bar?
JUST KIDDING. But, seriously, YOU WILL NOT FAIL. You know you can do it. You have the tools, just maybe changing up the mind frame a little bit and mincing your goals into smaller pieces. You’ve already focused on 5 pounds at a time, but also focusing on just having maybe half of the bar and save the rest for another day. It won’t melt if you chop it in half and freeze it right away, right?
Girl, you know you shouldn’t deprive yourself, but also having yummy foods in smaller quantities. YOU CAN DO IT. WE CAN DO IT. I have to tell myself this as well sometimes.
Oh my gosh, this is exactly what I needed this morning. Last night, I wanted pizza so badly that I could practically taste it. Hubby was eating pasta, and there I was with my sad little grilled chicken breast salad. What a fight I put up with my own self last night. Thanks for being such an inspiration!
Oh, by the way, the Weight Watchers Candy Bar ice cream bars are really yummy – not Dove quality, but still very tasty! Maybe try those next time you need some icy goodness.
Oh i just made a post today about the same thing!! I had a little bit of a meltdown yesterday and today i’m just going to stay away from sugar and white flour.
Sometimes it’s just soooo hard!
The sugar thing is tough! Take it from a sugar addict in recovery. Stevia is my best friend – if you don’t know about it I highly recommend trying it. It’s the only natural sweetener that actually stabilizes your blood sugar.
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Sugar is totally an addiction. There are foods that taunt me and I can’t have at home. I am addicted to food. I don’t know if that will change. It sucks, but it is reality. You can do it. We’re all in this together and we’re all dealing with the same stuff…