No, not my before and after photos – because yeah, lets’ just say I don’t see those anytime soon.
No matter, I love looking at before/during/after photos! Last night I was just browsing some vloggers I follow on youtube and one sprung to mind that I hadn’t checked in a while. Her youtube name is “Citydoll” and I watched her blogs as she journeyed through getting weight loss surgery. She was denied at first, I believe, and the whole process was very emotional for her. However, after she got her surgery, she rarely posted vlogs. Because, like many others, she was busy out living her life! So, I had gotten out the habit of checking on her so I did yesterday and as just shocked at her new self! If you’d like to see her before and after (although she wants to lose more – even though she looks fab as she is) – check her here. Such a gorgeous girl despite her weight:
Before: (go to 3:45 for full body shot)
After: (go to 3:05 for full body shot)
So, when I saw her I was like, Gah!!! I felt frustrated with myself because I was fat before when she was, too. And now she’s thin and I’m still fat. That being said, I should be happy that I have shed weight at all, right? It’d be worse to be over 300 still. Anyway, I started looking at more before/afters at obesityhelp.com. All of those people in the before/afters gallery have lost weight with weight loss surgery. However, I find them still to be very motivating just seeing what is possible, you know? That being said, I sometimes do get bummed for a little while because I just don’t feel like surgery is an option for me. I’ve been considering it on and off for about 8 years and just can’t bring myself to go any further than casually discussing it with my PCP. It’s real surgery, it’s so permanent, even if you only get the band, its IN there all the time. You can’t overeat for the most part, which is good, but that means you’re eating half a cup of food for THanksgiving? I don’t think I want that! I think it’s a great tool for many, and who knows what the future will bring. But I really really really want to be able to accomplish weight loss results without having to undergo surgery.
So, anyway… yeah, that’s been my thought process lately. I want it, I want it. I see what’s possible and how amazing they look and I hear how happy they are in their blogs and such, and I want that… just without the surgery part. It seems so impossible much of the time, but I can’t stop trying! I also have this fear of losing too much weight which I’ve heard a lot about on blogs and vlogs – people who cant keep weight on – can you imagine that? That would be scary!! Or some lose their enjoyment in food completely! That wouldn’t be cool! I’m sure for some people, it’s a great tool, but I don’t wanna lose that.
Just wanna be healthy, active and to feel pretty and normal!
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Just one day weekend was okay – could have done better, could have done way, way, worse. Not too bad – stayed on track, using my weekly flexpoints thingies. Today I’m trying to be stricter and also do my Shred and get in a half hour extra cardio past that.
I know how you feel. I don’t feel like my body has changed at all. I’m still the fat girl I was a year ago. However, the healthy changes are what matter. Good job with your just one day weekend! Perfection doesn’t exist but pretty good is TOTALLY something to be proud of!
Reading and seeing about some people’s success weight loss stories inspire and motivate me to work hard in exercising and cutting back on the unhealthy food.
As for the surgery, if I have the resources, I might lean towards getting it. LOL. But still, there’s always that shadow of doubt, hesitation and fear.
- Kaith
Thanks for understanding, girls. And Kaith, thanks for commenting – yay new readers!
Your blog is also great, problem is, I could keep reading and reading and reading til the time has flown away from me! haha!
Mack, I totally know what you mean – I feel like I’m just a few different forms of the same exact size. It’s up to me, though, I just haven’t made weight loss as big of a priority that it needs to be if I want the results I desire.
Also, what’s the most frustrating is I’m doing great all day and dinner comes and POW, it just eats up the calories/points! I don’t know how you keep weight on, Beth, because seriously you have some of the healthiest days I’ve ever seen!
What you don’t see on those WLS blogs is the people who put the weight back on. Which happens – a lot. So there is no really “quick fix”, you know?
And yeah – for all the reasons you listed, I would much rather lose the weight on my own.
If you’re bombing out at dinner time, could it be you’re not eating enough during the day?? Maybe adjust the spread of your meals so you’re eating more earlier, then maybe you won’t be so hungry at dinner? Just a thought…
Wow! That is very very inspiring! I do know how you feel, seeing people who have lost weight in the past year, knowing that I could have as well, but instead I put on weight. I get very frustrated with myself. But I just have to pick up and keep moving ahead. It is so inspiring to see people who have had successful weightloss such as this! We can do it, too!