Gosh, I’m so whiney lately, eh?  I have had this on and off headache for a week now and it’s making me crazy!

Anywho, just popping in  to say that I fell off track over the weekend – haven’t Shredded and my eating – HA!

I even started this morning off badly – but man, i can’t wait til tomorrow, I have to start changing it now.  Now, now now.

I could SEE my weight over the weekend.  So often I just don’t see it as that bad.  I saw it this weekend and I’m sick of it!  I’m also irritated with the feelings of being not good enough, what a waste of emotion to feel something so negative.

ALso – I weighed myself in a 15 days of the Shred… and really irriated to see only 3 lbs lost.  I think about why things arent different and I know.  Because for some dumb reason, when I dont lose weight how I want – I suddenly think, eating MORE crap is exactly what I need!  After week 1 on the Shred and eating beautifully, I gained a pound and that was really irritating.  But of course we ALL can say in unision – keep it up!  But I didn’t, I resumed eating like the girl who got UP for well over 300 lbs.

So, I figured I’d give it a couple more days and hopefully drop another 2 lbs so I could say I lost 5.  Alas, this morning, at day 21 (and 17 of those days doing the Shred) – I am down three pounds.

MOving on.

Alright, I’m going to chug some water now, prepare a nice salad for lunch with protein and colorful veggies and then I’m going on a walk with the kids – and that’s that.

Oh yeah, also, I just chatted with a friend from high school – she’s lost 90 lbs in six months.

Yeah… I want to join some of that success!

ALSOOOOOO – hello new readers!  Seriously, I can’t tell you what it means to me.  It’s very motivating, encouraging and just an all around positive feeling.  Thank you!  I really am not always this woe-is-me, but as you know, this journey has ups and down galore!  I really feel like I’m on the verge of some success… so let me find my footing and keep checking up with me!  And to my other regular readers – thank you for being there as wonderful encouragments and inspirations.  You’re so awesome!