I’m so happy to be posting this entry and saying – I’m doing great!!  I’m doing great and feeling great.  It’s not easy and even just an hour ago I was practically shaking – trying to keep myself from driving to Safeway for a sugar fix.  However, I ended up here at home because I CAN do this, control myself, “I’m the boss” and I found a healthy alternative.  I’ve been visiting Slimgenics daily, pretty much, to weigh in and just stay focused.  Although I’m not so crazy about weighing in, just walking into the center each day is keeping my mind on the goal.  No more of that eating a bunch of tortilla chips and realizing half bag down, “Oohh man what am I doing?!  Arent I trying to like… lose weight or something?”

Anyway, just a few days into things, but I’m happy.  Of course my hardest time of day is still to come.  But I’m looking forward to my weigh-in tomorrow AND getting another feel-great/do-great week under my belt.  It’s scary, though, because I’ve had this great day, great feeling happen countless times, and it’s scary to get excited about it because I feel like I’ll just fall even harder “when” I go back to old ways.  I know, it’s wrong to say “when” but that’s what I’m up against, that talk in my head.  But despite it, I’m fighting it and have been for a few days now, not perfect, but trying, effort, better choices.

Soooo, also I noticed a lot of you guys have planned gifts for yourself when you reach weight-goals or other goals, so I’ve been pondering some of those. I think I’ll put them into a sidebar or something.  So I can see it, work for it, earn it!  I’m going to attempt to put it in the sidebar, we’ll see if I’m successful at that – hahaa