“… Nor ray of promise cheats the pensive gloom.”
23 Feb
That’s how I’ve been feeling, my title above. I’ve felt like I’m almost untouchable inside myself. And another part of me is working to pull myself out of this place. It’s not that I’m feeling completely gloomy or anything (the sunshine finally breaking through the skies helps lift me especially) but when it comes to where I’m at in my soul, my weight, my emotions, my past, my addictions, my habits – Ive felt like that’s almost separate from myself.
It’s so important for me to keep up with YOU guys. I checked on many of your blogs today and already it’s got my mind really, really wanting to join you again in fighting the good fight. It’s not that I’m NOT doing it, but it’s slow going…
Anyway, reading your blogs woke me up a bit, shook me up a bit. Reminded me that this is a journey, not a race. There are bends in the road… but that doesn’t mean I’m not moving forward!
The title, btw, was an excerpt from a sonnet by Hartley Cooleridge. I was introduced to it by one of my favorite movies “Sense and Sensibility” – ahhh. Even if you’re not into period films – I’m not always, this one really touched me – love it!
I’m sorry you’re dealing with such emotions right now. Keep on fighting, though. You’ll find your way, I promise.
I have been feeling a little lost myself lately. Hope things work themselves out quickly for you. Just know that giving up is NOT an option!
I hope you get things sorted out soon. You can do this!