Let the sun shine in!
15 Mar
It’s so neat! I opened this to write a new post and as I sat to write that,at the exact same time, a beam of sunshine broke through the clouds and warmed my back through the window behind me. I’m still smiling about it now.
Jenn bestowed upon me, The Sunshine Award. Thanks Jenn!!
I got a new AWARD!! I love it! I feel so beloveddd! 
Really,we bloggers just jot down our random thoughts and feelings so much to help us organize our own frazzled thoughts – but to know that people out there care to read what you put out there, and give you things like cute little awards – it means SO much Thanks to everyone, btw. I’m going to pass this award on to just a few sunshiney people – I seriously need to update my blogroll so I can easily remember everyone during times like this. I wanted to give more out, but many of you have already gotten this award:
So, another topic. I went to see my counselor on Sunday and she is just so awesome. I hadn’t seen her for three weeks and I wish I could see her more often, but alas, moolah stuff. So, I left feeling like I got “a lot done”. She was cute because she said “You worked hard today” and it’s so true, I did. I am starting to realize SO MUCH more about myself. I am SO HARD on myself, so so hard to the point it’s almost paralyzing. Her saying I worked hard that day, made me feel embarassed. I wanted to say, I didn’t do anything. But that’s a lie, I did do a lot – I did a lot of ‘work’ in that session and it’s okay to be positive about yourself and not constantly focus on what you need to improve. One of my favorite sayings, “You see mainly what you look for.” I must start to look for very different things in my life, I must! She told me, and I already knew it, but it’s more true and real than I had let myself consider before – this is SOOOO not just about food, not even close about the weight – allll just a symptom of so many other things, and I have to work on those things. I need to be KIND to myself, my body and my soul – and doing that will help me get my weight in line. Anyway, so yeah, that’s how that went. I’m excited for the next few weeks, see what else I learn, what else I see.
It also brings me to this book that had an excerpt in this month’s O magazine. A book called, “Women, Food and God” – has anyone out there read it before? I’m going to …. okay, I was going to get it from the library. Alas, everything mentioned in O Magazine sends women into frenzies, so there are 20 holds on one copy of the book. I guess I’ll be buying! lol It would be a worthy read, I feel, even if you’re not religious. From the part I read in O Magazine, it was highly relatable and really gets you thinking deeplly about things that you only had seen on the surface. I’ll tell you more when I get my fingers on the book!
