I don’t know why I titled this entry that, I just felt like it. So, hello again all! Not a whole lot new to report. I just wanted to say that I finally started reading, “Women, Food and God” and so far, it’s been a great read. I already recommend it! I’ll let you know at the end how I feel, but so far, it’s been a positive thing.
Ew, my blog is so plain and ugly – I need a revamp! On my long to-do list… sigh…
Also – I wanted to touch a bit more on my “victim” phase that I chatted briefly about in my last entry. I’m very aware that I’ve been very focused on my excuses and my reasons of why I’m fat – the reasons behind the eating and definitely feeling like a victim. I think, though, that I feel like I’ve given them their time and I’m ready to move forward. Not feeling gung ho, but I feel movement. Obviously this isn’t a traditional – proactive – health blog since I haven’t been planning much, or seeing much body success – but my mind has had tons of growth which is wonderful. I’m starting to feel more calm from within, which has been deeply needed.
Ermm, weather around these parts has been pretty unpredictable. We had tornados one day. The next day, perfect sunshine and heat. The next day (yesterday), it snowed. And today, completely sunny and cool. Odd! I haven’t been to the gym in a while, but have been making myself go out on more walks – even if we just have a two hour window of fabulous weather, I take full advantage!
One of my best friends is getting lap-band surgery, very soon. As you know, I’ve been thinking about some sort of weight loss surgery for years. I always go back and forth. I find myself thinking about it again now, knowing that she’s moving forward, but still it’s not something I’m moving forward with. Still other things I need to handle, deal with, work through, etc – but it’s on my radar, we’ll see. I will be interesting to see her go through the process. She’s scared and nervous but very, very excited 
I’m happy for her. She lost over 120 lbs a few years ago, and has gained half back, so I know she’s very frightened of continuing to gain, so I support her decision very much. But still, not sure I’m ready. That being said, other than her, everyone else in my life is against it – lol… alas, no one else is fat!!!
Blah blah blah, I’m still drinking tons of water. I’m SO in love with it now, it’s so funny. Every single time I drink it I am just so pleased about it and say a little prayer to God, thanking him for access to such beautiful, clean drinking water. I have had a few sips of soda here and there, but nothing like before. I had a couple in the last two weeks – I’d like to get it down to around once or twice a month, that’d be good. However, when does the constant peeing STOP? Seriously… I was tempted to ‘ask my doctor about overactive bladder’ lol…
