Update from my dramatic early morning

EDITED in the evening of this emotional morning (see my original post underneath this one.

That was an emotional post.  It was frightening, it was devastating and I just felt no hope.  Can I just call out Katie J – you are an angel, a sweetheart, a wonderfully considerate person.  Taking the time to leave that comment just means the world when a person is just feeling so alone.  Thank you, you deserve everything wonderful.

I’ve decided despite what the docs say, I am going to go gluten free.  Went to the store today and got a few things to help me through the next couple of weeks.  I didn’t go nuts (even though the bill at the end of the shopping trip seemed like I did, gosh Whole Foods is craztalk, but I sure do love it there) – I will do mostly salads and veggies and meats and be careful about anything packaged that I put in m’body.  Although I got a Starbucks frap today without even looking into its gluten content, which just goes to show how careful I’m gonna have to be.  But in all honesty, I HOPE this is it, it sucks to be on this sort of diet (as I couldn’t even do the low cal, low fat thing well) but my day to day life depends on it, I can’t just not do it, there is no other option.  It must be dealt with, and in a way, as I stood crying int he shower this morning – maybe this pregnancy is a blessing – it forces me to DEAL with this, and not just hide behind medications.  I really, deeply hope this is a step in the right direction.  Heck, can I hope it cures me?  I will… why not hope for it…